2012 ADD Journey

Hello all,

Just call me CH. I'm here on 1/1/2012 I am on a mission to defeat my ADD inattentive condition along with my social anxiety and being an atypical hoarder. Yes, I am a mixed bag.

First, my ADD. I am the one who forgets a present at a friends house that was just handed to him a few minutes ago. I am the one who drives to a restaurant only to pass it up and not realize it miles down the road due to being deep in thought (never had an accident in 25 years of driving though..)

I am the one with over a dozen house projects going at the same time. I am the one who is reading seven or more books at a time but never finish any of them. I am the one trying to study for a computer exam only to be distracted by another game of Ms Pacman. I am the one who goes downstairs to wash his clothes and forgets about them 24-48 hours only to have to wash them again. I am the one who starts to wash the dishes, goes away to "let them soak" and only remembers about them when he comes across the unfinished chore the following morning. I am the one who while playing Pictionary, you yell out the correct answer but I miss it.

Now, regarding my social anxiety, I do not like crowds. Meeting new people is torture for me. If you don't say, "Oh, by the way, this is CH", that new person will never know my name. My Fridays are normally spent at home in front of the computer watching Youtube videos. If you are lucky enough to become my friend, you will be for life though. I have three people that I can call friends and each of them have been friends for over 30 years.

Hoarding - I love memories. I love that each one of the objects in my home brings back a memory. Thankfully, I do not go to the stores and buy stuff as compulsive hoarders do, but normally what goes in my home stays. Actually, I wouldn't have even called myself a hoarder if it wasn't for a tv show about the condition and someone with my traits was labeled "atypical". I am a procrastinator and lack self-motivation and is easily distracted so daily chores that are done without thinking for some are very difficult for me and that adds to the problem.

I have made progress in 2011 where my living room is nearly clean, but the other rooms in the home need a lot of work. And, with this being a foreclosure I bought, there is a ton of additional work that needs to be done and is very hard doing it all by yourself. Getting paralyzed with the work load is a good way of putting it, and I tend to run away to the computer room or ignore it and watch something on Netflix. This is a tragedy though. Why? I have three growing nieces a few blocks away and I can't invite them due to the mess and condition of the home. Even above defeating the ADD and social anxiety, I want my nieces here.

So that's me. I plan on updating this frequently but with ADD you never know. Wish me luck... taking a deep breath and plan on tackling the kitchen once again.

CH